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11:05 A.M., Thursday, Jan. 31, 2002: letter to matt
Here's my response to the voicemail Matt left me:

You want to know what you've done to piss everyone off. Oh my God, that is laughable. I'll TELL you what you've done.

First of all, I don't care if you're bitter towards Amanda. Stay out of our relationship. We are working things out ourselves, and the last thing we need is more drama and busybodies in our way.

Second of all, you lie. I can't believe a damn word that comes out of your mouth. Let us go through the lies one by one, shall we?

1. You thought that Amanda never showed me as much love as I showed her. Bullshit. She always showed me how much she loved me. You're just jealous that we have found our respective soulmates, and you can't even get a guy to treat you decently.

2. You thought that Amanda was using me. Yet more bullshit. That's the most ridiculous thing I've ever heard, and I don't know where you're getting that. Stephanie said Amanda was using me for my room, which I promptly debunked. The only thing I can think of is that Stephanie got that load of crap from you, because she didn't know about any other things.

3. You said it looked like all Amanda and I ever did was get together and have sex. Contrary to your relationships, sex is NOT the most important element in ours. It may be an element, yes, but not the main one. We know that you can't base a relationship on sex alone. Maybe you haven't figured that out, but it's true. You also never saw us hang out a majority of the time. Maybe you saw us going to have sex more than us going to hang out, but just know that that's still more bullshit.

4. You said that Amanda's going to jail for failing her drug test. Where the fuck did you get that? If she were to have failed, it wouldn't matter because they weren't testing for drugs, just alcohol.

5. You said that Joe told you that she said she still wants him. Not even close. If she wanted him, she'd have had him by now. They've talked about dating in the past, and they both agreed it'd be too weird.

6. Hearsay, my ass. You told me you heard all this shit from Joe. Amanda and I asked him if he said any of this shit, and he had no idea what we were talking about. And I bet he doesn't appreciate you saying that he said these things without his knowledge. In fact, if he even gives you the time of day you should get down on your knees and pray.

7. You said that you don't talk shit about me behind my back. First of all, I've seen physical evidence that you have. Stephanie has shown me chat transcripts between you guys where you've talked shit about me. Second of all, even if those were isolated incidents, how the hell do you expect me to believe you after all these lies and what I'm sure have been more?

And you wonder what you've done to piss people off. I just told you--you're a liar. Oh, and you're a hypocrite. May I point out the evidence of this:

1. You said you got mad when Amanda and I used your bed for sex. First of all, we never actually had sex on your bed. Second of all, how dare you get mad when you've done the EXACT same thing to me...especially when I didn't give you guys permission to do anything on my bed. You just assumed I did.

2. You said in the beginning of my relationship with Amanda that you didn't want me getting involved in drugs with her. First of all, never in a million years would she have me do that. She knows how I feel about that shit, and wouldn't pressure anyone else to do that to begin with. Second of all, don't be telling other people not to get into drugs when Mikey has told me that you have asked him to help get you stoned on more than one occasion.

3. You said you didn't like seeing me and Amanda get together to have sex, and that's all you saw us do and you thought it was wrong. GIVE ME A FUCKING BREAK! You are the one who talks about rimming, blow jobs, how you haven't gotten sex in so long, etc., ad nauseum. Believe me, NO ONE wants to hear about that shit. EVER. Several people can't stand you for that reason. (That and they realize how obnoxious and hypocritical you are, which I should've realized from the beginning. But I like to believe there is good in everyone, which is my fault. I kick myself now for attempting to be a good friend to those who are undeserving of my friendship.)

Those are the only specific instances I can think of off the top of my head. I know there's more, but I think I've proved my point quite succinctly.

I have had enough of your bullshit. I will be civil towards you, but from now on don't expect me to be your friend in any sense of the word. I don't care if you have beef with my girlfriend, or anyone else for that matter. Stay out of our business and our lives. I think YOU had better check your "resources", which I belive the only resource there could be is your ass. The only credible source I can think of that would speak to you about Amanda would be Joe, and since I know he's not saying this shit, it has to be coming from your ass. Unless you can prove me otherwise (and I'd like to see you even think of trying), I will believe Amanda and Joe over you any day.

In conclusion, you want to know who your real friends are. You can include me in the list of those that aren't. I'll be civil towards you in public, but just know that whenever I see you that in my head I'm thinking about how much you disgust me as a human being. I'm not your friend anymore, and I never will be. Anyone who is as dumb as I was to trust you would be wise to leave you to your own devices as well. Either that or they'll find out for themselves how much of a liar and hypocrite you really are. Don't expect me to hang out with you or talk to you outside of work. I'm done with you.

Sincerely,

Krie

And yes, I did send that to him. I can't wait to see his reaction to that. He'll probably try to tell me that none of that's true (which I know that these things ARE true), and beg me to take him back as a friend. I'm hoping he realizes that that won't happen and will leave me alone. Let's see how this unfolds.

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