I had the most amazing conversation today...I met this girl in the Intellectuals chat room on gay.com. Read for yourself...Kriedom: hey
IAskedAliceAgain: Thank You For Chatting on gay.com! (flowers and dildos adorn the screen)
Kriedom: lol
Kriedom: i got tired of their senseless drivel
IAskedAliceAgain: groovy icon
Kriedom: thanks
IAskedAliceAgain: yes. . .that happens quite frequentl;y
Kriedom: placebo fan?
IAskedAliceAgain: occasionally
Kriedom: they
Kriedom: are my absolute favorite
IAskedAliceAgain: i'm suspended in time. i listen to the cure and the cranberries, for chrissakes
Kriedom: the cure is always good
IAskedAliceAgain: talking heads, leff buckley, this mortal coil, suzanne vega
IAskedAliceAgain: a whole shitload of folk
Kriedom: i'm really into brit-pop
Kriedom: classic punk, too
IAskedAliceAgain: ahhh yes. ever listen to the gits?
Kriedom: no, can't say i have
IAskedAliceAgain: their frontwoman was mia zapata. she was amazing.
Kriedom: i'm a big buzzcocks fan
IAskedAliceAgain: heh heh. . .punkaholic, eh?
Kriedom: to a certain extent, yes
Kriedom: brit-pop's #1 in my book, though
IAskedAliceAgain: radiohead?
Kriedom: of course
IAskedAliceAgain: spaaaace rock
Kriedom: as well as travis, idlewild, coldplay, muse
Kriedom: and a bunch of others
IAskedAliceAgain: i like the smiths
Kriedom: so do i
Kriedom: and new order
IAskedAliceAgain: kate bush
Kriedom: peter gabriel, too
IAskedAliceAgain: *smile* of course
IAskedAliceAgain: mogwai. . .the crazy scots
IAskedAliceAgain: i named a fish after them
Kriedom: hehe
IAskedAliceAgain: i have to pee. . .desperately. . .be back in a moment
Kriedom: ok, lol
IAskedAliceAgain: ahhhh so much lighter
Kriedom: lol
Kriedom: have you ever heard of the white octave?
IAskedAliceAgain: no. . .but i'm sure i will soon enough
Kriedom: their lyrics are very poetic
IAskedAliceAgain: awesome.
IAskedAliceAgain: ever listen to neutral milk hotel?
Kriedom: no, don't think i have
IAskedAliceAgain: they are very poetic as well. . .in a dadaistic sort of way
Kriedom: i'm not waiting around. you have opened the door. waiting for nothing more. no more touring around. but it keeps my nights full. no more nights with no encore. this salt in wound scenario is growing old. but i'm protected by a thousand layers of built-up skin. designed to protect what you've destroyed within. i'm not waiting around. you have opened the door. waiting for nothing more. no more touring around. but it keeps my nights full. no more night with just us four. this salt in wound scenario is growing old. and all i have to show for it is scars. just promise that you will always be the one. who talks when i refuse to speak. just let me miss ("Appeals for Insertion" by the white octave)
IAskedAliceAgain: mmmm.
IAskedAliceAgain: warm and tearful. i like it.
Kriedom: i think you'd really like their song "call the kiss"
IAskedAliceAgain: Like an owl I always returned
to my bed at dawn,
stinking of cigarettes and cheap talk and night life
and glowing with scratchy remnants of your presence,
a cat's rough tongue in my hair.
Later, I read books about masochists
and giggled with you under the sheets.
we camped by day,
until Manhattan shook us awake at dusk.
.
Family quarrels and bad drug trips percolated in us
as we made coffee and washed tables.
caf� smells and indie rock lured customers,
customers who told us we were beautiful
entreated us to play Scrabble with them,
and we responded with smiles to them
and secret winks to each other.
Let the suckers in the back flip the granola pancakes.
We belonged in the front lines.
.
Stale sweat and sauce stains are no deterrent
when it's bedtime and you have a blanket with a beating heart.
.
Years later (nine months),
my biceps still beefy
from balancing trays of ginger beer and falafel,
I deliver flowers and a poem to you at Woodlawn
and remember our off-days and on-nights.
Books still come in the mail for you,
your name anonymously glaring from white labels.
They are but a small part
of the altar that has built itself for you.
Kriedom: that's amazing
IAskedAliceAgain: that's mine
Kriedom: wow...that's really powerful
IAskedAliceAgain: *blush* thank you. : )
IAskedAliceAgain wants to directly connect.
IAskedAliceAgain is now directly connected.
IAskedAliceAgain:
IAskedAliceAgain: it was written for her.
Kriedom: http://www.angelfire.com/super2/krieativity/poems/formylove.html
Kriedom: i have a website with a lot of my poetry on it...that's one of them
Kriedom:
Kriedom: written about her
IAskedAliceAgain: damn it. . .i can't pull up the link.
IAskedAliceAgain: but she's beautiful.
Kriedom: some of my work
Kriedom: i know
IAskedAliceAgain: what is her name?
Kriedom: amanda
IAskedAliceAgain: and again my server cannot find the url
Kriedom: hmm...
Kriedom: -After the sun has melted into a charred, pitch-black, gooey dwarf heart-
-When the moon has died a pitifully icy, lovelorn death-
-When the lazy stars defiantly decline to shine-
-When the sea bass shrivels up, unleashing the foulest of stenches upon the land-
-After the guitars of the world refuse to play but just one riff-
-After there are no more bagels to be toasted-
-When filmstrips and puppydogs are no more afraid of the dark than water-
-That's how long I will stay attached to your heart.
IAskedAliceAgain: fothermucker
IAskedAliceAgain: *smiles*
IAskedAliceAgain: i like it, i like it
Kriedom: written for her
IAskedAliceAgain: you make me want to have coffee with you
Kriedom: mmm, a cappucino sounds lovely
IAskedAliceAgain: sweet sad songs heard
over cloves and shade-grown coffee
milk my mind for memories
excavating sweet earthy you
.
let's pick up again
in the spirit of alice
virtual realities don't
exist only on the flipside of the mirror
.
sweet sad songs can hurt more than
opium
memories of nine months ago and
extrication from a smashed vehicle
.
did i tell you
i am the only survivor,
exhumed from a grave shared with your mirror?
.
so these sweet sad songs
tipped with indian cigarettes
invoke memories of you, of her, of an irrevocable
loss, of two gentle distant unfinished
loves
.
i tolerate each day with one leg
.
singing a sweet sad song
unearthing one
reviving another
IAskedAliceAgain: visiting a gravesite and a website
i raise my teacup
verily, i hope you'll join me
excavation can be so lonely
Kriedom: such emotion dripping from every syllable
Kriedom: Magnetic whiteheat
Zap at your slightest touch
Passion engulfs the soul
Swallowing it whole withing the flames
Burns the flesh, though it is temporary
"Pain is love" says the echoes of time
That may be the case of me with you
I'd go through the Inquisition twice over for just one kiss
Electric choreography with each movement of your lips as ours tango in the night air
Under stars that illuminate the charcoal sky
As we shiftshiftshift to each side
"Tighttight" our bodies yelp
Twined to another--unable to leave
As the flames surround us and eat us all up
We dance the moonlight dance for the rest of eternity
Slowly revolving and keeping no space
While nature sings us a sweet hushed lullabye.
IAskedAliceAgain: it's kind of sad that i owe half of this past year's work to her death.
IAskedAliceAgain: you're so sensual. i like your style
Kriedom: the past few months have been written about/for her
Kriedom: thank you
Kriedom: *blushes*
IAskedAliceAgain: yeah. .. they tend to fill up your soul
Kriedom: it was as if our souls became one...that's how deeply i felt for her
IAskedAliceAgain: yes. . .do you hear her as you wake up? do you expect to roll over and find her beside you?
Kriedom: yes
Kriedom: and i'm torn into shreds over being with her or not
IAskedAliceAgain: as she continues to hurt you.
Kriedom: we have this incredible bond to each other, yet it's mirrored with such angst
Kriedom: exactly
IAskedAliceAgain: but i understand. i'd be a lying shit if i said i didn't
Kriedom: it's incredible to find someone that knows exactly how you feel...
Kriedom: She
Treats me like a lady should be treated
Like a precious flower that cannot be dropped
As a porcelain ladyfriendmidget worth more than gemstones
She
Won�t ever drop me or let me collect dust on a shelf
Worships me like a nondomestic goddess upon the dirt
Makes sure I fall never from my tarnished pedestal
She
Keeps me locked from the vicious creatures of the night
Lets me be the workinprogress I am
Judges me not by simple yardsticks
She
Completes me
She
Is my lover
She
Has my pulsating heart in her hands
She
Holds me and rocks me to sleep when insomnia creeps into my head
Most importantly,
She
Loves me
And I love
She.
IAskedAliceAgain: can i adopt you, you tortured, brilliant creature?
Kriedom: lol...if i can do the same
IAskedAliceAgain: soitanly, soitanly.
IAskedAliceAgain: you'd love me. i make my own chai and mochas : )
Kriedom: ooh, mocha....yumm...
Kriedom: i can't cook to save my life, but i'm an excellent singer
IAskedAliceAgain: singing=good
IAskedAliceAgain: i just adopted a new guitar
Kriedom: i want to go on broadway
Kriedom: i play bass
IAskedAliceAgain: since my old one was stolen
IAskedAliceAgain: bassist=killer fingers
Kriedom: lmao
IAskedAliceAgain: and i am listening to a mix of the cranberries, tori, and the guess who
Kriedom: i love the guess who
Kriedom: i'm thinking of putting on my white octave cd...i feel like waxing poetic a bit more
IAskedAliceAgain: no sugar tonight (in my coffee) no sugar tonight (in my tea)
IAskedAliceAgain: wax away
IAskedAliceAgain: : )
IAskedAliceAgain: i think the lead singer of the cranberries sounds like joan baez with an irish brogue
Kriedom: hmm, never thought of that
Kriedom: if i could split my heart in two, i'd give the beating half to you (more white octave lyrics)
IAskedAliceAgain: *smiles*
IAskedAliceAgain: white octave is so you.
Kriedom: i just recently got into them
Kriedom: i appreciate awesome lyrics...to me, lyrics make or break a song
IAskedAliceAgain: when the word and the chord become life partners, the song has achieved nirvana
Kriedom: very true
Kriedom: and it seems that's very difficult to find nowadays
IAskedAliceAgain: yes.
Kriedom: h/o, i'll brb
IAskedAliceAgain: okay
Kriedom: back
Kriedom: h/o phone
IAskedAliceAgain: ha
IAskedAliceAgain: all right
Kriedom: back
Kriedom: it was my mom
IAskedAliceAgain: hi, mom
Kriedom: hehe
IAskedAliceAgain: i just adopted these two new fish
Kriedom: this may sound weird, but it feels like i've known you for a while
Kriedom: cool
IAskedAliceAgain: yesterday i found them in a scummy, cracked bowl. . .a betta and an oto
IAskedAliceAgain: just sitting there on the sidewalk
Kriedom: i used to have a betta
IAskedAliceAgain: so i rescued them
IAskedAliceAgain: i'll add them to the tank when i'm sure they don't have any diseases
IAskedAliceAgain: bettas are awesome. i had a grrl one for awhile
IAskedAliceAgain: i totally hear you on feeling like we've known each other
Kriedom: reminds me of a quote from "dogma"--"find some man, some woman, that you can connect with, even for just a moment. that's all life really is, sister, it's a series of moments."
IAskedAliceAgain: true, that.
Kriedom: ah, "call the kiss" is playing now
Kriedom: very, very moving song
IAskedAliceAgain: jethro tull - one brown mouse, here
Kriedom: my dad is a huge tull fan
Kriedom: i grew up listening to them
IAskedAliceAgain: heh. . .i grew up on janis and the beatles and the who
IAskedAliceAgain: love every one of 'em
Kriedom: tull, def leppard, 80's pop here
IAskedAliceAgain: Puff warm breath on your tiny hands.
You wish you were a man
who every day can turn another page.
Behind your glass you sit and look
at my ever-open book ---
One brown mouse sitting in a cage.
IAskedAliceAgain: Do you wonder if I really care for you ---
Am I just the company you keep ---
Which one of us exercises on the old treadmill ---
Who hides his head, pretending to sleep?
Kriedom: Call The Kiss under stars. i watch the sky. as night consumes the daylight. and i recall the sweetest dreams. but red wine helps them fade. here's to another glass. i need it to displace. the emptiness i cannot swallow. i tried to cleanse these guilty hands. but the stains they won't leave. i tried to rush to your defense. but i tripped on my weak words. don't terrorize. my senseless whines will fade. my eyes complain. my mouth stays shut. i leave you in your bed. i pulled your teeth. to hear the truth. the truth is it still kills me to this day. but don't terrorize. my senseless whines will fade. into another glass. it's too soon for today. today i feel about okay. i wait for these nights to come to an end. so i can feel at home. i tried to rush to your defense. but these guilty hands they shake. don't terrorize. my senseless whines will fade. if i could split my heart in two. i'd give the beating half to you. if these words never rise above us. i swear i'd slit my wrists for you. if life becomes so cold and dim. that to breathe is to live. then i'll breathe for you. but i won't repent. i won't repent for what i did to make this break. here's to another glass. i need it to replace the emptiness. i cannot take away
IAskedAliceAgain: i want to cry.
Kriedom: you should hear the accompanying music
IAskedAliceAgain: *downloading
Kriedom: that's the song that got me into them
IAskedAliceAgain: damn comp is fozen
IAskedAliceAgain: frozen
Kriedom: i hate that
IAskedAliceAgain: *trying to be the good, patient jackass*
Kriedom: hehe
IAskedAliceAgain: there we go. white octave. . .call the kiss.
Kriedom: "style no. 6312"--in the rain. i see your makeup. slowly dissolving on your cheek. in a way. you're like a circle. constant and closed off from me. it's time that i wrote this song. it's about you. i surrender to you. in the wake of the conversation. i'm devoted to you. i surrender to you. and i claim this to be the first day. i can wake up without you in my head. so we play songs of disaster. but the tone of the music will change. it's time that i wrote this song. it's about you. i surrender to you. in the wake of conversations. i'm devoted to you. i surrender to you. i lost you. i lost you. i lost you dear
IAskedAliceAgain: ieeee download faster
Kriedom: *tries to make download go quicker*
IAskedAliceAgain: hee hee
IAskedAliceAgain: i love audio galaxy, though. . .so much stuff
IAskedAliceAgain: 20% downloaded, my ass
Kriedom: try grokster....you can find basically anything there
IAskedAliceAgain: *falls backward*
Kriedom: oh no!
Kriedom: *catch!*
IAskedAliceAgain: *smile* thank you
Kriedom: no prob
IAskedAliceAgain: that was a good stretch, though
Kriedom: hey, i try
IAskedAliceAgain: i like being caught on occasion, though
IAskedAliceAgain: it's a nice relief
IAskedAliceAgain: hey, we're still directly connected
Kriedom: how about that
IAskedAliceAgain:
Kriedom:
Kriedom: damn, didn't think that'd be such a big filr
Kriedom: *file
IAskedAliceAgain: mother superior meets cinderella
Kriedom: hehe
Kriedom: that pic's a year old
IAskedAliceAgain:
IAskedAliceAgain: if you can guess which one's me. . .
Kriedom: gee, i wonder...
IAskedAliceAgain: that's about two years old
IAskedAliceAgain: i went to my senior prom with my best friend in the whole world.
Kriedom: i went to prom junior and senior year with the same guy (who was my boyfriend at the time...we dated for 2 years)
IAskedAliceAgain: fun fun
IAskedAliceAgain: i didn't go to my junior prom.
Kriedom: i left him when i met amanda
IAskedAliceAgain: wow.
Kriedom: that didn't go over very well, though we're friends now
IAskedAliceAgain: yeah. . .i remember coming out to my boyfriend. he quoted the fucking bible.
Kriedom: how lovely
Kriedom: christian babble
Kriedom: is always fun
IAskedAliceAgain: indeed.
Kriedom:
IAskedAliceAgain: awww, a faery. *pets*
Kriedom: back when i was a fake rehead
IAskedAliceAgain: you are a really cute girl.
Kriedom: thank you *blush*
IAskedAliceAgain: as if people don't tell you that all the time.
Kriedom: well, now...:-*
IAskedAliceAgain: so your real name is krie?
Kriedom: krystie, actually...krie's my nickname
IAskedAliceAgain: mine is kristen. . .eerily similar
Kriedom: strange...i have an aunt named kristen, actually
IAskedAliceAgain: hahaha
IAskedAliceAgain: well, shucks
Kriedom: i was kinda named after her
IAskedAliceAgain: i was named kristen because i was born in december. i was going to be named meredith.
Kriedom: i've always liked the name meredith
IAskedAliceAgain: yeah, me, too, damnit
Kriedom: my mom swore she was having a boy and didn't come up with a girls
IAskedAliceAgain: oops
Kriedom: name until about a month before i was born
IAskedAliceAgain: well, she did all right
IAskedAliceAgain: : )
Kriedom: i would've been kurt vaughan II, after my uncle who shared the same birthday
Kriedom: why thank you
Kriedom: instead of getting a boy, she got a girl who likes girls...
IAskedAliceAgain: i prefer the latter
IAskedAliceAgain: *playing the white octave song*
Kriedom: hope you like it...playing "pure morning" by placebo at the moment
IAskedAliceAgain: d'you like modest mouse?
Kriedom: i've only heard 1 song once
Kriedom: and that was a while ago
IAskedAliceAgain: i like the sound of this
Kriedom: gotten to the best part yet?
IAskedAliceAgain: that song made me cry.
Kriedom: unbelievable, isn't it?
IAskedAliceAgain: *blinks* yeah. it is.
IAskedAliceAgain: mm, vegan pizza
Kriedom: i don't have the discipline to be vegan
Kriedom: plus, i'm a very picky eater, so there's not a lot of veggies i like
IAskedAliceAgain: i'm not a true vegan. . .but everyone else in this house is, so i often just give in to conveniencfe
Kriedom: i like burgers too much, too :-)
IAskedAliceAgain: i'm more of a "freegan"--i eat eggs and dairy that come from free-roaming animals on private, local farm
IAskedAliceAgain: s
IAskedAliceAgain: well, as local as a bay-area farm can get
Kriedom: there's nothing but farms up here
IAskedAliceAgain: hee hee. . .upstate new york
Kriedom: there's a difference between upstate and northern, as i found out the hard way
IAskedAliceAgain: it's all upstate to me ; )
Kriedom: upstate refers to the syracuse area, while nothern is, well, north of that
IAskedAliceAgain: so you're upper than upstate. . .
IAskedAliceAgain: damn
Kriedom: believe me, i got clued in to that...
Kriedom: syracuse is an hour south of me
IAskedAliceAgain: JESUS
Kriedom: canada is 45 minutes north
IAskedAliceAgain: you're in fuckin' canada!
IAskedAliceAgain: ha, yeah
Kriedom: pretty much, eh
IAskedAliceAgain: *grin*
IAskedAliceAgain: i have actually only met southern new yorkers here. .. most of them are white-bread aristos from westchester county
IAskedAliceAgain: and a few from the city
Kriedom: up here you'll find military peeps like me (dad's in USAF) or country hicks
Kriedom: rednecks abound up here, it's scary
IAskedAliceAgain: hoo ha
Kriedom: we have what are known as COWs...Citizens Of Watertown
IAskedAliceAgain: HAHAHA
IAskedAliceAgain: well, my darlin', i have an interview in half an hour
Kriedom: there are some pretty nasty people in this area
IAskedAliceAgain: i'm all ready to go. . .but it's quite a walk down there, as campus is frickin' huge
IAskedAliceAgain: much klan activity up there?
Kriedom: i need to start getting ready for my callback, as well
Kriedom: not where i am, but north of me i'm sure there is
IAskedAliceAgain: yeesh
Kriedom: there used to be a big klan haven way back in the day not far from me
IAskedAliceAgain: gawd
Kriedom: tell me about it
IAskedAliceAgain: they rallied once near my neighborhood (back home), which is predominantly black
IAskedAliceAgain: needless to say.
Kriedom: how lovely
IAskedAliceAgain: well, i need to get going.
Kriedom: as do i
IAskedAliceAgain: *hug* you are wonderful.
IAskedAliceAgain: ha ha, i got one right on your quiz
Kriedom: thank you *blush*
IAskedAliceAgain: *grin* talk to you later, sweet tortured poet.
Kriedom: ok, hope your interview goes well
IAskedAliceAgain: thank you, thank you
IAskedAliceAgain direct connection is closed.
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