Here's a poem I just wrote about today's events, which you can read about in my last entry.You Don't Even Notice A Difference
You tell me "it's too soon".
All I can do is try to hide the violence inside
And smile bitterly with witheld tears.
I scream back in silence
And you don't even notice a difference.
You just see how mildly upset I seem
And are content with that.
"But there is so much more" I try to squeak out
But the words cling to my throat like dissheveled monkeys
And I bite down on my wimpered tongue with a dirty vengeance,
Hoping to grasp ill-begotten words before they reach your beating eardrums.
I turn to leave,
Handle out of my back, waving defiantly,
And as you go own your merry way,
I start to crumble, manifesting into dust,
But you don't even notice a difference.
--November 4, 2002--